So...I took lsd for the first time... and I swear I had a mini mental breakdown. o_o
I remember walking to the beach with the tab on my tongue holding a cooler which made me hot and sweaty (this was before the trip) then we got there and I saw down and we waited D: then i started getting really determined with chewing up the tab into the smallest little bits of paper you'll ever see...then an ant was fucking with our shit?
And I was like 'FUCK YOU FUCKING ANT' and started smacking it with a hairbrush...except it wasn't a regular ant...it was one of those long muscular fuckers you see at parks and nowhere else... anyways so after killing the ant and shouting profanities at his dead body... I got nauseous and projectile vomited into the tree... and sat next to it and listened to my friend talk...and something she said was reaaaaaaallly funny and I started laughing my ass off and then in the middle of laughing I just like... faded into TEARS and was talking about my love life and I was CRYING AND SNOTTING and shit everywhere and then it just faded back into laughter and this happened a few more times (for about ten minutes apparently...) and then I got up and my arms felt really...short. And then!
I sat at the table and she took out our food and gave me the donut I packed for the occasion... and it looked so disgusting o_o I was like 'Eww' and smashed it into the table and then like STOPPED DEAD and started crying and talking about how it was my love and shit and then I spat juice on it and said it was beautiful because it was complete and started crying more. Then I made her give me my damned iPod and started listening to my first song on my top 25 most played (Hey Saturday Sun by Boards of Canada) which was like...it felt like my brain had an air conditioner (because for some reason I had a HUGE HEADACHE) and with every note hit in the beginning it was like a puff of cool freezer air on my brain o_o and I was like...completely ditrscted from her and I was like '...it's so... *sniff**sniffffff* so amazing' and she came over and robbed me of my pleasures
and then we started walking... towards the beach which was a huge mistake (originally we were just in the parky area with trees and shit before the beach) and it was like a HUGE DESERT and it took SO LONG TO FIND OUR PLACE... and our place was like...a really hot spot under the shadow of a dying tree but we didn't want to go on any more. And we sat there and rubbed cooler water mixed with mango yogurt all over each other because it wasn't hot like the sand around us... and then her mom started calling which ruined shit for us (had to start thinking about what to say and how to say it and how not to sound too....wierd) and holy crap people calling you when you're tripping is like... the worst...
So yeah after much panicking and me being like 'OK SIT DOWN AND SHUT UP AND LISTEN TO MY LOGICAL SENTENCES LEAVING MY LOGICAL MOUTH.' her mom came and talked to me about her husband who is extremely drunk and not working, sitting at home and shit and I was just looking at her eyes and they were so frightening...SO FRIGHTENING. And her face's like...blush shades? the red was going from REDDER to red to REEEEED(MAXIMUM RED)!' and sometimes the sky behind her was tinting pink....eventually we found ourselves walking towards the bathrooms which were extremely far away...and the sand was sucking my feet in with every step... eventually we got to the bathroom and I like...had my most extreme experience there...I was so relieved to be away from HER TALKING because it was SO LOUD and horrible... and I took like five minutes to figure out how to unbutton my shorts and finally figured it out and sat on the toilet, peed, and sat and looked around myself... I had my hand on the wall which was REALLY WET AND COVERED WITH SWEAT, and the sweat was coming down from the top of the stall to meet my fingertips perfectly even though on the way down it took a few detours. and when I breathed so did the stall walls. I just sat there listening to people talk and hearing nothing but like 'And theyareyoucominghe went saturdaetinglater? Howareyouplannidoeseveryone want some toothpandemics?' It was almost like... almost fainting... like the entire time i felt like I was a walking form of the time I fell over after cutting a huge hole in my finger and almost passed out...just sort of laid on the ground listening but not comprehending...except I was on the toilet o_o
Eventually we found ourselves in the car...and even though I was in the car with COLD AC I still felt like I was in the sand....at the beach... and then Her little sister handed me this little panda doll she had and I swera it was the cutest thing in the world and I asked if I could keep it for two days(?) and we had a mini argument because she first said I could keep it for 1million years and I only wanted it for two days, she then gave me two years,followed by a month, and I eventually settled on two days. We got home (after telling them we'll meet them at the pool in ten minutes) and I RIPPED OFF MY CLOTHES as soon as I got in my room and jumped into my bed and started rolling around in it and it FELT SO GOOD. So good.
We walked to the pool reluctantly and I swear it was like we entered heaven with hot men who all have chopped off cocks... Well...it felt that way in my head...the water was so amazing but I had to stop and think about entertaining her mother and sister which ruined the past two hours already :C apparently we were in the pool for around three hours... and the water felt like when I stepped in it...I was stepping into a new outfit o_o The clouds looked like two lizards nuzzling eachother, and then I saw andy warhol staring at me angrily from the next cloud...and around ten minutes later I looked up and saw a deer-esque cloud and I was like 'Hey look a deer' and there was a jet going through the sky and it peirced the deers legs o_o and my friend was like 'OH NO, THEY SHOT OUT HIS LEGS.' it was quite sad
Around 8:00 we walked home after saying goodbye and attempted to settle down... I had to babysit when I got home which was an odd experience... I remember laying on the floor and talking to the baby about how he looked like a successful republican all silent and aware and his sister in timeout(theyre both 1yr olds) was the unsuccessful criminal democrat(I'm a DEMOCRAT BTW) who is complaining for funds to raise their unsuccessful family... This is where things started to settle down if you will... >_> I sang quite a bit about (insert random sentence here) IN AMERICA; 'everything fits with that by the way... IN AMERICA!'
I called my bfffffl and told him if I could...because I love him so much, I'd buy him a star (and then I started crying because I knew if the stars were availible they'd be way too expensive for me) and my friend took the phone away and I got extremely mad at her for talking with him for more than two minutes...
Eventually the phone conversation lead to 'I love you D: GO WATCH SNL TTFN' and I went and sat in my bathroom with the lights off for 20 minutes and watched the patterns in my vision which looked like kaleidiscopes and it was...crazy >: yeah...I'm really tired of typing this seeing as it's 4:48 am but...yeah I'm fine now and... wondering who has ever started crying for no obvious reason other than a statement you've made yourself on a trip o_o?